Deliberately Left-Out and Disrespect

Do any of you know how it feels to emotionally get stabbed in the heart? I do. Lately it seems it happens everyday. By one person or another. Some times they don't know they do it. Either way my heart has been in pain for a while now.

I'm not sure how people can deliberately leave people out who are suppose to be their friends. I also don't understand how they can be okay with it; morally. I could never purposely put someone though all this pain. Yes, sometimes I can get mad and stressed, I'll say the wrong thing in the heat of the moment. Once I look back, I'll own up to my mistake and apologize. I'm not saying I am anywhere near perfect but I have high standards for myself and for others. I promise myself that I will not allow to be treated with a lack of respect and I will NEVER stay in a relationship where I am treated badly.

It kills me when people stay in unhealthy relationships. I tell myself that I wouldn't stay but I don't know how it feels to be in love with a person but have negative aspects to the relationship. From my position on the outside, I say leave. But what the people in the relationship are going through is different because they have the love.

- Loving Luuna

Where are you

Lately, I have been so excited to come home from college.
I imagine spending lots of time with my sisters and them being just as excited as me to see each other.
I imagine seeing my best friend instantly and never leaving each others sides.
I imagine light and happiness.
Instead I find mopey-ness.
I find dark and quiet.
I don't find my best friend.
I find myself alone.
More alone than at college.
Where is everyone.
I don't want to waste my few days home before I have to go back to college.
Where are you?