Amazing Moments Happening

Currently I have something in my life I have always dreamed of happening in this way and it is actually a real thing and happening to me! My ideal way of "dating" someone would to just start of chill, hang out, gradually kiss and such and just see where it goes. At a certain point me and the person will kind of talk about how things are going and the label we want to apply up until this point we are just friends feeling each other out and seeing how we feel.

Sooooo what's happening in real life is basically that. I meet this person on an app and we chatted a bit and then come to find out they are in one of my classes. So at this point we have only seen each other in class but haven't talked in person. Now this is about 2 months in to the semester, and we meet on the app at the being of the semester, and we would only text once in a while if I had questions about homework but we didn't talk beyond that.

Then about 2 weeks ago I had texted this person and we were just chatting and then they just asked what my intentions were. They didn't want to waste their time on any bullshit relationships or anything. I just said after our chats it seems like we could be good friends. So we continued to chat and our conversations really flowed and I was surprised. We have class twice a week and I still didn't talk to them then that week in class. I would want to but I just had  no idea what to say!

April 23, we had class and I didn't talk to them! Ugh I am so lame. After class I texted them and we chatted back and forth and then they said to come hang in their room and they would show me some of the music they like since we talked about showing each other that. So I was freaking out on the inside because I was afraid of any awkwardness but I agreed and went up to their room in the dorms.

We talked for 5 hours that night. 5 hours! I still can't believe it. And it wasn't all surface stuff. It was real stuff. As I left, we hugged no big deal and I had to go home for the weekend. That weekend we texted just a little and it was chill. But honestly I missed them. I really enjoyed talking to them.

Sunday, April 26, we were texting and I was saying how I hope to see them before class on Tuesday. So we ended up hanging out Monday night and watched Ghost Adventures which at first I was like.... Umm, this is different. But it is actually an alright show. For the first episode, we were each sitting on different ends of the bed. Into the second episode I laid down because my back was hurting. Some how we ended up laying next to each other and then we were cuddling and just being close to each other. They then had said it's bad how much they wanted to kiss me. So some how later in the night we kissed. And kept kissing. And somehow I ended up staying the night. I had absolutely no intention of sleeping over. We fell asleep around 6 am... opps!

Since then we have hung out everyday. It's crazy! in a good way. We've slept together the past 4 nights now. I never meant for this to happen. i seriously went into this wanting a friendship and now is this amazing friendship but we kind of like each other as more? and we kiss and care about each other.

The thing that baffles me the most is that all of this has happened in a week and a half since we hung out in person for the first time. How does this happen?

Deliberately Left-Out and Disrespect

Do any of you know how it feels to emotionally get stabbed in the heart? I do. Lately it seems it happens everyday. By one person or another. Some times they don't know they do it. Either way my heart has been in pain for a while now.

I'm not sure how people can deliberately leave people out who are suppose to be their friends. I also don't understand how they can be okay with it; morally. I could never purposely put someone though all this pain. Yes, sometimes I can get mad and stressed, I'll say the wrong thing in the heat of the moment. Once I look back, I'll own up to my mistake and apologize. I'm not saying I am anywhere near perfect but I have high standards for myself and for others. I promise myself that I will not allow to be treated with a lack of respect and I will NEVER stay in a relationship where I am treated badly.

It kills me when people stay in unhealthy relationships. I tell myself that I wouldn't stay but I don't know how it feels to be in love with a person but have negative aspects to the relationship. From my position on the outside, I say leave. But what the people in the relationship are going through is different because they have the love.

- Loving Luuna

Choosing Happiness

Hey everybody!

Lately I have been having a hard time. I've pretty down, I have been letting every little thing bother me. It is taking a toll on me and the people around me. But I have decided to choose to be happy. I read this quote,

"You will have bad times, but they will always wake you up to the stuff you weren't paying attention to."

- Robin Williams

I then found this video on Youtube and it was really powerful. It discussed that our happiness is controlled by things that are out of our control. Our level of happiness is determined by 48% genetics. That blew my mind. Big life events control 40% of our happiness but these kinds of events wear off. Your happiness won't last. Finally, choice. We can choose our happiness with 12%. But it is a powerful 12%. In any situation we can allow our 12% to influence our choices.

So with all of this and deciding I was done being unhappy. I am now focusing on the good in my life and I will not stay stuck on the bad. Even when others around me are going through something hard and they seem to take it out on me, and friends, I let it roll off my back. I don't need others negative problems affecting my happiness.

I will leave you with,  LOVE YOURSELF AND LOVE OTHERS.... BUT.... if people want to suck, then bounce. lol.

Adios , Loving Luuna

Let's Start Again! I turned 19!

Hey everybody! I know it has been awhile but since it was just my 19th birthday last Wednesday I had a thought. I am 19! So close to 20 and having to start growing up for real! It is pretty terrifying. But  I know some Youtubers have vlogs and then they also have a blog which is an extension of there vlog. I have been thinking about having a coordinating blog post with my vlogs for a while and why not start now?! So maybe not with all of my vlogs but a main ones such as my birthday I am hoping to have a coordinating blog post to further express myself where I can't always do that in my vlogs. I hope you all enjoy!

To start, I can't believe it has been 6 months from when I started blogging and declared I would blog everyday... you can see how well that worked out. It just wasn't realistic in my life. But hey! I'm back and ready to go! Last Wednesday, June 25, I turned 19. It is pretty crazy. I just can't wrap my head around it.

Here are my coordinating vlogs to my birthday parties!
Surprise Birthday Number 1
Surprise Birthday Number 2

I wasn't really expecting much from my birthday this year since I am currently away at college, staying in the dorms, because I am taking summer classes. I went home the weekend before my birthday and waiting for me was a SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY! I was so excited, happy, and surprised that I cried. No joke. Watch the vlog and you will see. I was in no way expecting a party when I got home at 9 at night on Friday June 20th. I have always wanted a surprise birthday party but I really never expected to get one. A dream come true. It was absolutely perfect. The only thing that would have made it better were if all my amazing friends were there. I so do appreciate Amy, Erin, and Jerek for being there. It was perfect. Sadly Amy had to leave shortly after for work but I got to see here the next day when we went to 22 Jump Street!

On Sunday we had my family party. It was nice and simple with delicious cupcakes baked from my mum. Then on Tuesday night, Adina slept over in Kallie and my dorm room. We were up past midnight so they wished me a happy birthday then! Love it! As I mentioned before, I didn't expect much to happen on my real birthday. But guess what!? I have the best friends and family! My mom and grandma drove down that morning and took Kallie and I out to lunch to The Cheesecake Factory. Delicious! Oh! and my mom had the workers put a candle in my cheesecake and they sang me Happy Birthday! I was so surprised. Melt my heart :)

After lunch I headed to work for the afternoon where my co-worker, Amanda, gave me a gift card to Starbucks! She's the best! Also, my wonderful Buttercup friends (aka the kids I care for at daycare) made a beautifully scribbled birthday card! I heart it so much. Little kids art work is the absolute best. After work I walked back to the dorms and  hello! Kallie and Adina just... beyond words!

I walk to my door and they put a sign and a helim b-day balloon on it. I love balloons! I open my door and boom! there they are with party hats and blow whistle things. 2 SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY'S IN 1 YEAR?! What more could I ask for? They then go beyond and have presents for me and sparkling juice! Yay for non alcoholic drinks!!! Kallie also made me an ice cream cake. I just have the bestest friends in the whole world. Kallie and Adina had even decorated our room. I just about died!

All in all, one of the greatest birthday's of my life. I am so grateful to have such loving friends and family. I don't know what I would do without them.