Deliberately Left-Out and Disrespect

Do any of you know how it feels to emotionally get stabbed in the heart? I do. Lately it seems it happens everyday. By one person or another. Some times they don't know they do it. Either way my heart has been in pain for a while now.

I'm not sure how people can deliberately leave people out who are suppose to be their friends. I also don't understand how they can be okay with it; morally. I could never purposely put someone though all this pain. Yes, sometimes I can get mad and stressed, I'll say the wrong thing in the heat of the moment. Once I look back, I'll own up to my mistake and apologize. I'm not saying I am anywhere near perfect but I have high standards for myself and for others. I promise myself that I will not allow to be treated with a lack of respect and I will NEVER stay in a relationship where I am treated badly.

It kills me when people stay in unhealthy relationships. I tell myself that I wouldn't stay but I don't know how it feels to be in love with a person but have negative aspects to the relationship. From my position on the outside, I say leave. But what the people in the relationship are going through is different because they have the love.

- Loving Luuna

Let's Start Again! I turned 19!

Hey everybody! I know it has been awhile but since it was just my 19th birthday last Wednesday I had a thought. I am 19! So close to 20 and having to start growing up for real! It is pretty terrifying. But  I know some Youtubers have vlogs and then they also have a blog which is an extension of there vlog. I have been thinking about having a coordinating blog post with my vlogs for a while and why not start now?! So maybe not with all of my vlogs but a main ones such as my birthday I am hoping to have a coordinating blog post to further express myself where I can't always do that in my vlogs. I hope you all enjoy!

To start, I can't believe it has been 6 months from when I started blogging and declared I would blog everyday... you can see how well that worked out. It just wasn't realistic in my life. But hey! I'm back and ready to go! Last Wednesday, June 25, I turned 19. It is pretty crazy. I just can't wrap my head around it.

Here are my coordinating vlogs to my birthday parties!
Surprise Birthday Number 1
Surprise Birthday Number 2

I wasn't really expecting much from my birthday this year since I am currently away at college, staying in the dorms, because I am taking summer classes. I went home the weekend before my birthday and waiting for me was a SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY! I was so excited, happy, and surprised that I cried. No joke. Watch the vlog and you will see. I was in no way expecting a party when I got home at 9 at night on Friday June 20th. I have always wanted a surprise birthday party but I really never expected to get one. A dream come true. It was absolutely perfect. The only thing that would have made it better were if all my amazing friends were there. I so do appreciate Amy, Erin, and Jerek for being there. It was perfect. Sadly Amy had to leave shortly after for work but I got to see here the next day when we went to 22 Jump Street!

On Sunday we had my family party. It was nice and simple with delicious cupcakes baked from my mum. Then on Tuesday night, Adina slept over in Kallie and my dorm room. We were up past midnight so they wished me a happy birthday then! Love it! As I mentioned before, I didn't expect much to happen on my real birthday. But guess what!? I have the best friends and family! My mom and grandma drove down that morning and took Kallie and I out to lunch to The Cheesecake Factory. Delicious! Oh! and my mom had the workers put a candle in my cheesecake and they sang me Happy Birthday! I was so surprised. Melt my heart :)

After lunch I headed to work for the afternoon where my co-worker, Amanda, gave me a gift card to Starbucks! She's the best! Also, my wonderful Buttercup friends (aka the kids I care for at daycare) made a beautifully scribbled birthday card! I heart it so much. Little kids art work is the absolute best. After work I walked back to the dorms and  hello! Kallie and Adina just... beyond words!

I walk to my door and they put a sign and a helim b-day balloon on it. I love balloons! I open my door and boom! there they are with party hats and blow whistle things. 2 SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY'S IN 1 YEAR?! What more could I ask for? They then go beyond and have presents for me and sparkling juice! Yay for non alcoholic drinks!!! Kallie also made me an ice cream cake. I just have the bestest friends in the whole world. Kallie and Adina had even decorated our room. I just about died!

All in all, one of the greatest birthday's of my life. I am so grateful to have such loving friends and family. I don't know what I would do without them.