I'm hurting and I'm alone

I have tried so many times to write about this girl I'm falling in love with and how I feel and how we met. I just can't seem to get it right. I want it to be perfect and I want to explain everything. But I can't. And I hate it. But right now I need to talk about how I'm hurting. 

I'm fAlling apart so bad right now and I'm all alone. I don't have anyone to talk to. Of course I have my family, my siblings, but they won't get it. Know one will understand this empty feeling I have inside. I don't know how to fix it. And I don't even know if there is a reason. That's why it's hard to talk to anyone. Because even I don't understand what is happening to me. 

I wake up just feeling so icky and depressed. Thankfully, lately, the weather has been amazing! And it puts me in a good mood. Everyday I wake up with the hope that today will be a good day and it has been starting out that way lately. But then as the day goes on, it kind of goes down hill. Nothing good happens. I don't get to see the one person I want to see the most. 

Growing up, I had the best group of friends. All the way through high school. Now in college, I haven't had a consistent group of friends. And I don't know how to deal with it. It tore me apart first semester when I was losing everyone and I felt so alone. This semester has been better. I am getting really close with Maranda who I knew from last year but we weren't close. But the only thing I'm worried about is last year I got close with someone and now this year we don't even talk. Stupid stuff happened and now it sucks. So I'm just so worried that I'm going to lose everyone again. 

That's all for now. I can't keep going on about this. This all sucks but I still try to find some sliver of good. It's hard but I can't still smile at when I think of th r good times with this girl and her amazing smile and laugh. I am so sad but one day I won't be, right?

Choosing Happiness

Hey everybody!

Lately I have been having a hard time. I've pretty down, I have been letting every little thing bother me. It is taking a toll on me and the people around me. But I have decided to choose to be happy. I read this quote,

"You will have bad times, but they will always wake you up to the stuff you weren't paying attention to."

- Robin Williams

I then found this video on Youtube and it was really powerful. It discussed that our happiness is controlled by things that are out of our control. Our level of happiness is determined by 48% genetics. That blew my mind. Big life events control 40% of our happiness but these kinds of events wear off. Your happiness won't last. Finally, choice. We can choose our happiness with 12%. But it is a powerful 12%. In any situation we can allow our 12% to influence our choices.

So with all of this and deciding I was done being unhappy. I am now focusing on the good in my life and I will not stay stuck on the bad. Even when others around me are going through something hard and they seem to take it out on me, and friends, I let it roll off my back. I don't need others negative problems affecting my happiness.

I will leave you with,  LOVE YOURSELF AND LOVE OTHERS.... BUT.... if people want to suck, then bounce. lol.

Adios , Loving Luuna

DIY Bracelet

I go through these phases. Sometimes I am so happy and all "Let's live life" and the next I just want to stay in my room. I have zero motivation to go anywhere. I hate it. I don't know why this happens.

Lately that is how I have been. It is so lame because I am literally at home all the time unless I work and my little sister, Lily, and her boyfriend are always here. Her boyfriend, Brody, probably thinks I'm weird since I am always here. Ugh. Whatever. I mean it really doesn't matter what he thinks but when I think about it. It is not ok.

Okay. I am listening to Spotify right now and this really good song came on. Go listen, Isabella by Dia Frampton. Amazing.

I was on Pinterest and saw a cool bracelet DIY so I went to Hobby Lobby and bought the materials. It turned out pretty cool. Here is the link. DIY Beaded Bracelet Go try it out and let me know how it turned out. Super easy. 

{ LovingLuuna }