Deliberately Left-Out and Disrespect

Do any of you know how it feels to emotionally get stabbed in the heart? I do. Lately it seems it happens everyday. By one person or another. Some times they don't know they do it. Either way my heart has been in pain for a while now.

I'm not sure how people can deliberately leave people out who are suppose to be their friends. I also don't understand how they can be okay with it; morally. I could never purposely put someone though all this pain. Yes, sometimes I can get mad and stressed, I'll say the wrong thing in the heat of the moment. Once I look back, I'll own up to my mistake and apologize. I'm not saying I am anywhere near perfect but I have high standards for myself and for others. I promise myself that I will not allow to be treated with a lack of respect and I will NEVER stay in a relationship where I am treated badly.

It kills me when people stay in unhealthy relationships. I tell myself that I wouldn't stay but I don't know how it feels to be in love with a person but have negative aspects to the relationship. From my position on the outside, I say leave. But what the people in the relationship are going through is different because they have the love.

- Loving Luuna

Choosing Happiness

Hey everybody!

Lately I have been having a hard time. I've pretty down, I have been letting every little thing bother me. It is taking a toll on me and the people around me. But I have decided to choose to be happy. I read this quote,

"You will have bad times, but they will always wake you up to the stuff you weren't paying attention to."

- Robin Williams

I then found this video on Youtube and it was really powerful. It discussed that our happiness is controlled by things that are out of our control. Our level of happiness is determined by 48% genetics. That blew my mind. Big life events control 40% of our happiness but these kinds of events wear off. Your happiness won't last. Finally, choice. We can choose our happiness with 12%. But it is a powerful 12%. In any situation we can allow our 12% to influence our choices.

So with all of this and deciding I was done being unhappy. I am now focusing on the good in my life and I will not stay stuck on the bad. Even when others around me are going through something hard and they seem to take it out on me, and friends, I let it roll off my back. I don't need others negative problems affecting my happiness.

I will leave you with,  LOVE YOURSELF AND LOVE OTHERS.... BUT.... if people want to suck, then bounce. lol.

Adios , Loving Luuna

2nd Year of College: What's going on?

Good morning! I've been back at school for 2 weeks now and everything is pretty awesome, aside from a few things. But hey, life's not perfect and that's a good thing.

If we look back... I have been pretty busy. Check out my vlogs from the past to weeks to help catch yourself up. I moved in the dorms... wait, I mean residence halls... and right away I experienced freezing cold showers, hot elevators, and an ab workout. Once everyone else on our floor moved in we all met and mingled and found friends. I was so excited for all the new people to move in; see what new friends I'd make. Would I keep that same as last year?

I am just so amazed at what can happen in 2 weeks. Yes. I had friends last year. Even with the summer break, being back now, we are so much closer. I live with Kallie this summer so we bonded a lot and grew so much closer. I wasn't that close with Molly last year. To be honest, she was kinda intimidating.. in a good way! She seemed so put together and worldly. Really educated. I only really talked to her because our friends were friends. You know how that goes. But some how we begun to actually talk to one another and I absolutely love her. She is great. She's a keeper.

And now I've meet some great new freshmen and I love my RA, Vanessa. Fall Welcome here at school has been a blast because it has given us a lot of fun things to do together and get to know one another better.

One thing that is really stressing me out is my job. I love working at the daycare on campus. It was a great way to get away from the stresses of school and the dorms and life. But now work is my stress. I work Monday through Friday at 7 am and I tend to work up until class. I don't really have a break. I would love getting 8 hours of sleep at night but I have homework and papers and I still need a social life. I am really trying to be smart about how I spend my time, but it is hard. Especially this year because our floor is even more social than last year, or I just want to be more social with people than I was last year. Either way, I have seriously been considering quitting my job. I know I will miss it terribly but I just don't know if I can do it. I work 23 hours a week plus have about 13 hours of class to go to. Then I have a ton of reading and homework to do. But I only have about 2 or 3 hours a night before I should be getting ready for bed and doing the day all over again.

One last thing before I go... I have started putting captions on my vlogs! Most people don't find that very exciting. In my life it is. I have a few deaf friends who are in my videos more frequently now and I want them to be able to watch my vlogs and enjoy them like everyone else. It takes a long time to do them but I am doing it so my vlogs are more inclusive.

Stay tuned for more frequent  blogs!

All my love, Heather Kimberly

Summer Dorm Room Tour (University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee)

Hey ya'll! I'm back with a tour of my summer dorm room! I stayed in Sandburg East Tower, room D, for 2 months while I took Public Speaking and ASL 3. Watch my coordinating vlog room tour!

I was at the end of the hall in my suite, which was actually really nice because then it was quieter.

These 2 pictures are the closets that Kallie and I shared. Kallie got the lower shelves and the hanging area that was more accessible. As  you can see part of my hanging clothes are behind a wall. That is called a "dumb layout" but since Kallie is like 5'4'', she would not be able to reach back their to grab her clothes. And me being 5'7'', I can.

This is my desk. It is so beautiful with all my frames and pictures. Oh and notice that amazing lamp that matches everything else in my room. So cool!

Enjoy this bookshelf that came in the room. It held my amazing TV so Kallie and I could binge on tons of HGTV along with Rookie Blue, of course. On the shelves I put more frames (what else) and some books :), nail polish and a mini sewing kit (the mason jar).

Under my very high and raised bed I stored my shoes and cube. The ended up being my step stool because my bed ended up going up to my stomach. Behind that I kept my suitcases for going  home on the weekends and the totes to pack up at the end of my stay.

This is the side table that also came with the room. I put my printer on it and stored extra paper and personal care products; shampoo, soap, band aids, tide stick, etc; in the drawers. Oh and in the left corner is my laundry hamper.

Here is my beautifully made bed that never looks this beautiful so please enjoy.

Hope you enjoyed this tour and make sure to check out my coordinating vlog for a different perspective of the room. I also show you the kitchen and bathroom situation in the vlog.

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Let's Start Again! I turned 19!

Hey everybody! I know it has been awhile but since it was just my 19th birthday last Wednesday I had a thought. I am 19! So close to 20 and having to start growing up for real! It is pretty terrifying. But  I know some Youtubers have vlogs and then they also have a blog which is an extension of there vlog. I have been thinking about having a coordinating blog post with my vlogs for a while and why not start now?! So maybe not with all of my vlogs but a main ones such as my birthday I am hoping to have a coordinating blog post to further express myself where I can't always do that in my vlogs. I hope you all enjoy!

To start, I can't believe it has been 6 months from when I started blogging and declared I would blog everyday... you can see how well that worked out. It just wasn't realistic in my life. But hey! I'm back and ready to go! Last Wednesday, June 25, I turned 19. It is pretty crazy. I just can't wrap my head around it.

Here are my coordinating vlogs to my birthday parties!
Surprise Birthday Number 1
Surprise Birthday Number 2

I wasn't really expecting much from my birthday this year since I am currently away at college, staying in the dorms, because I am taking summer classes. I went home the weekend before my birthday and waiting for me was a SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY! I was so excited, happy, and surprised that I cried. No joke. Watch the vlog and you will see. I was in no way expecting a party when I got home at 9 at night on Friday June 20th. I have always wanted a surprise birthday party but I really never expected to get one. A dream come true. It was absolutely perfect. The only thing that would have made it better were if all my amazing friends were there. I so do appreciate Amy, Erin, and Jerek for being there. It was perfect. Sadly Amy had to leave shortly after for work but I got to see here the next day when we went to 22 Jump Street!

On Sunday we had my family party. It was nice and simple with delicious cupcakes baked from my mum. Then on Tuesday night, Adina slept over in Kallie and my dorm room. We were up past midnight so they wished me a happy birthday then! Love it! As I mentioned before, I didn't expect much to happen on my real birthday. But guess what!? I have the best friends and family! My mom and grandma drove down that morning and took Kallie and I out to lunch to The Cheesecake Factory. Delicious! Oh! and my mom had the workers put a candle in my cheesecake and they sang me Happy Birthday! I was so surprised. Melt my heart :)

After lunch I headed to work for the afternoon where my co-worker, Amanda, gave me a gift card to Starbucks! She's the best! Also, my wonderful Buttercup friends (aka the kids I care for at daycare) made a beautifully scribbled birthday card! I heart it so much. Little kids art work is the absolute best. After work I walked back to the dorms and  hello! Kallie and Adina just... beyond words!

I walk to my door and they put a sign and a helim b-day balloon on it. I love balloons! I open my door and boom! there they are with party hats and blow whistle things. 2 SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY'S IN 1 YEAR?! What more could I ask for? They then go beyond and have presents for me and sparkling juice! Yay for non alcoholic drinks!!! Kallie also made me an ice cream cake. I just have the bestest friends in the whole world. Kallie and Adina had even decorated our room. I just about died!

All in all, one of the greatest birthday's of my life. I am so grateful to have such loving friends and family. I don't know what I would do without them.

It all comes back to me Loving you more than you Love me

I am going to be honest. I am currently writing this as I am crying. Does it ever happen to you where you have so much going on that you just need to cry? This seems to happen to me not frequently but not never either. I just have so many things going on in my life and then there was one more thing added to my pile that I take off my glasses and cry. Rub my eyes and fall apart. There is just so much frustration inside of me sometimes. Part of it is because I feel more for people than they do for me so I end up having "higher"expectations I guess and they continue to fail me and I feel disappointment. It makes me remember that they don't love me as much. It hurts but it is reality. Ugh! Seriously I don't have time for this!

Where are you

Lately, I have been so excited to come home from college.
I imagine spending lots of time with my sisters and them being just as excited as me to see each other.
I imagine seeing my best friend instantly and never leaving each others sides.
I imagine light and happiness.
Instead I find mopey-ness.
I find dark and quiet.
I don't find my best friend.
I find myself alone.
More alone than at college.
Where is everyone.
I don't want to waste my few days home before I have to go back to college.
Where are you?

Oblivious or Does It Even Matter?

Looking back (it's really not that far back, to about sophomore, maybe even junior year of high school) I feel like I didn't even know that my uncle had a disability. He was just my uncle. Did other people notice? One reason is because I am just oblivious. But with that I feel that the obliviousness is also more that it really didn't matter that he had a disability. I loved him so much that it was insignificant. Anyway, my uncle had Cerebral Palsy or CP. It was more on the lower level of the spectrum though because he could talk and walk and function like most people in society but he did have some muscle problems I believe. Possibly some learning disabilities as well but I don't really know. All I know is that he was my uncle and I will always love him even though he isn't here anymore.

{Heather Kimberly}

UW-Milwaukee Living Learning Communities: ASL-LLC Chicago Trip

UW-Milwaukee Living Learning Communities: ASL-LLC Chicago Trip: This month the ASL-LLC had two events, the biggest was joining the other LLCs in a trip to Chicago this past Saturday April 12. We boarded...

Day 21 - Exhausted

One good thing about working so early and having zero free time is that now my homework will be done early and the night before and I will get plenty of sleep. Since I got up at 6 today, I am exhausted and it is only 8:30. I wanted to go to bed at 8 but I know that is ridiculous. I am though sad that I will have less of a life and I have to consstanly watch the clock and make sure I get to sleep. I'm afraid I won't wake up in the morning if I don't get enough sleep.

{ LovingLuuna }

Day 20 - EP

Tomorrow is my first day of work! Thankfully I only have one class tomorrow. I'm kinda scared but super excited! I slept til like 9 but chilled in my room for a while. Finally Adina came home to me!

{ LovingLuuna }

Day 19 - Moving Back..

Moved back to college today. Feels kinda weird but I'm glad to be back. Although Adina wasn't back today it was lonely but there were others here. We just had a nice chill night in the lounge... OH I FIGURED OUT MY LIFE!!!!! THAT IS THE BIG NEWS!

Yes I was talking to Kallie and we are going to live together this summer and take ASL 3! Plus I will then get to work at daycare and make money and life is fantastic!!!

{ LovingLuuna }

Day 18 - I'm Heading Home

I'm heading home
heading home
tell the world that I'm heading home....

Yup so tomorrow I am going back to college. Today I babysat. So much fun! and then Amy came over and she helped me make my tie blanket and then we watched Revenge of the Bridesmaids. I just love Amy because we have the simplest of nights and it is fun and ok. Heart her and Sylvia!

{ LovingLuuna }

Day 17 - Having A Life

The reason why the blogs have been very late or very very late or very short is because I am busy having a life that I then don't have the time to write about it. Either I am so very tired from a long day or I am out all night with friends and forget to write.

On January 17, 2014 I went to About Time with Brittanny. Then I went bra shopping with my mum and sister at Aerie. eww. So strange but I did find 2 bras! and they were $20 each. Such a good price. 

This is the good part. I went to my old high schools pep band at a basketball game and goodness it makes me so happy. I couldn't stop smiling and I ALWAYS sit there tapping my foot and such with the tempo/beat. I kept giggling. I just love band. And I sat there threw the game crocheting lol. I am making a scarf! I got to spend awesome time with my best friend Jerek and also Jacob. They are both seniors in high school still. After pep band was over we hung out with some friends at Jacob's house. Then when we had to leave Jacob's house we went to Bobby's house. House hopping :) But there we played The Game of Things and it got so weird and crazy. 

At one point Britt, Bobby, and I went to Festival to buy supplies. There I seemed to become loopy and I was acting like I was under the influence. I don't know what got into me. I'm pretty sure the cashier thought I was drunk. When leaving I said happy Easter to him.

Oh! So cute! Jerek drove me that night and when we drove to Bobby's he pulled up to the driveway and let me get out before he pulled to the curb because there is a lot of snow. Also at one point he was all, "Let me get that" and opened the passenger door for me. Gosh touch my heart. Love him.

So yeah. I did not expect my day to turn out that way and I am so glad that it did. I love my friends... which are my family.

{ LovingLuuna }

Meet the Supervisor

Today I meet my supervisor at daycare. Her name is Jenny and she is so nice! I am really excited to work with her. I'm pretty sure it is just me and her in the morning with 8 kids. I can't wait to start! I may even be getting more hours so I can spend more time doing what I love and have the added bonus of making more money!

{ LovingLuuna }

Hot or Not App

Holy balls. This hot or not app is going insane right now. I went on it today and I got all these connections. And normally I don't talk to most the connections but now everyone is chatting with me. I can't keep the people straight lol. whoa.

And one of the people I connected with was in my English class last semesters so we have been chatting.

{ LovingLuuna }

Not So Bad

Daycare wasn't that bad! Once I finally found the building it was all chill lol. The daycare just switched buildings and it is so nice inside! I know it sounds cheesey but it is beautiful. I just can't even explain it to you.

There was only one guy in our group! (He is ginger! lol) There are only 16% of the staff that are male.

{ LovingLuuna }

Super Nervous!

I have my orientation tomorrow for daycare! I really am not that scared for the actual orientation. It's really finding the building. They have changed buildings since I went for my interview. So now I don't know where it is and it is stressing me out! Wish me luck on finding it!

{ LovingLuuna }

The Little Things [1]

I am one of those cheesy sentimental people who find the smallest, microscopic things the sweetest. Today I was babysitting my favorite kids and I had to take Henry to his martial arts class. He had missed a few classes and wasn't quite remembering the moves. He needed to get one more strip on his belt to move up to the next belt and be able to graduate the next week. Well today he got his strip :) I was so proud of him. As I watched from the viewing area with his little brother (Charlie), Charlie was standing on his chair watching and clapping his hands. It was adorable. When the class was over Henry came over to me and I told him good job and I was so proud of him and such. He is smiling all big and then gives me this huge hug and a kiss on the cheek. Oh, gosh. Touch my heart. Little kids and their love. So simple and pure. You know when they show it they mean it. There is no hidden message.

My crazy kids (Henry and Charlie)

So anyway, that was just so sweet and those to boys just make me so happy.

{ LovingLuuna }

DIY Bracelet

I go through these phases. Sometimes I am so happy and all "Let's live life" and the next I just want to stay in my room. I have zero motivation to go anywhere. I hate it. I don't know why this happens.

Lately that is how I have been. It is so lame because I am literally at home all the time unless I work and my little sister, Lily, and her boyfriend are always here. Her boyfriend, Brody, probably thinks I'm weird since I am always here. Ugh. Whatever. I mean it really doesn't matter what he thinks but when I think about it. It is not ok.

Okay. I am listening to Spotify right now and this really good song came on. Go listen, Isabella by Dia Frampton. Amazing.

I was on Pinterest and saw a cool bracelet DIY so I went to Hobby Lobby and bought the materials. It turned out pretty cool. Here is the link. DIY Beaded Bracelet Go try it out and let me know how it turned out. Super easy. 

{ LovingLuuna }

Never Thought College Would Change My Friends

My senior year of high school, I finally found and grew close to my friends. All the years leading up to my senior, I juggled friends and they came and gone. But then everything fell in to place senior year. Through out that year, my friends and I didn't understand how people didn't stay friends once they moved away for college. We were all so close. It didn't seem like anything could pull us apart. We all exchanged addresses so we could write letters and in the beginning we did Google Plus Hangouts and all chatted. It was fun.

But then we all started to make new college friends and we stopped communicating as much. The sad things is, when I am at college, I hardly notice since I am having fun with my new friends. Once I come home to visit though, I notice. Yes we make plans to hang out but sometimes I just want my college friends. It really makes me angry because I love my friends from high school but I seem to not be putting in effort to see them.

{ LovingLuuna }

Always Being Ditched

I hate to sound like I am complaining but it just really plain old sucks sometimes. I like to think I am a relatively good and nice person but sometimes I am just treated like crap. When I sit and look back, it seems there are so many times that I have been ditched or left behind. Being all my friends left the dance while I was still getting my things together (and we were all going to my house so they were all there before me) or simply changing or cancelling plans. I especially hate the boyfriend card. I really don't care if you have a boyfriend. I get along fine with the boyfriends but why is it necessary to ditch plans with me to go out with him. You were the one that wanted these plans in the first place and now I have to do it alone.

Sorry. If you guys really knew me, you would understand better. I normally don't let these kinds of things get to me but after awhile it all just builds up. And it hurts. Makes me just want to stay home alone and stop trying. But thankfully I am not dumb and I do like humans so I don't just stay in my room like a nub (is that right?).

Anyways, I am not going to let that get me down. Next week I get to see my BEST FRIEND!!! I am so excited! I miss her so much. We are roommates so this winter break has been torture. Plus we are finally exploring the city of Milwaukee around our campus and we are going to go to AJ Bombers for lunch. It sounds delicious and the have a veggie burger so I can't wait.

Adina and Me

Ta Ta. See you tomorrow ;)

{ LovingLuuna }

Waking UP Way To Early and Missing Humans

I don't mean to sound ungrateful but next semester is going to suck on some level. I finally got hired at the daycare on campus! So excited until I realized I work 7:30-10:30 Monday through Friday every morning. Then I have to go to class. I love kids and I really wanted this job but... EVERY MORNING. I guess I will have to get my homework done right after class so I can sleep and do it all over again. But I am so happy. I promise.

In other news, my friend Austin tends to date constantly. He said this semester he would take it slow, focus on school. And now he turned around and got a girlfriend. Ugh. I mean she lives far away so it's not like she will be here distracting him, but he always moves to fast. Oh well. His decision.

I miss humans. At school I live with my friends so I see them all the time. At home I just don't make the effort and neither do my friends over all. The one person I REALLY want to hang out with always never contacts me and I'm done being the first one all the time. So I basically sit at home and Lily's boyfriend is always here so (it sounds lame, I know) I hang with them. Obviously they do things separate but sometimes I am with them.

{ LovingLuuna }

Going Off Topic

Gosh, I had this whole idea planned out in my head that I wanted to go on about and now I lost it. And I still have the feeling inside of me that went with what is on my mind but now I don't know what is on my mind. Life is rough lol. Hmm... what was it?

I think it had something to do with boys are being used by friends. I seriously can't remember. So I am going to talk about this amazing feeling I had the other day.

I don't know if you guys know but I am a vlogger. I do daily vlogs of my life. The other day I was watching a vlog from this summer and it just filled me with so much joy. It showed my why I vlog. I never really knew why I did. I just started doing it and I enjoy editing the videos. But now I really have a true reason as to why I do. Here is the link to the video that gave me this AHHH (imagine angels singing) moment. (You Can't Keep the Seniors Away From Band) It was the simplest of days but just looking back and remembering oh ya I did band rehearsal even though I graduated and remembering how good it feels to play (btw band makes me really emotional and I just absolutely LOVE playing). Also just showing myself that "Yes, Heather, you do have good times with your sister." because sometimes she can be so annoying. But seeing the videos, I'm like, "Oh ya, she can be fun and not annoying sometimes."

Me and my little sister Lily after our Homecoming Parade 2012

{ LovingLuuna }

Irritation

Today I was so irritated. Everything bothered me and I don't know how to deal with it.  My little sister and her boyfriend were just hanging out doing homework together talking. I was telling them not to be so obnoxious.  They are never quiet and constantly giggling. Ugh. And I do really like her boyfriend. And we all hang out. But for some reason today I was just not having it.

{ LovingLuuna }

That Nice Feeling

Have you ever experienced that feeling? That feeling where you have just pulled off the socks that have been on your feet all day. You drop them on the ground; pull back the covers on your bed. Sit down. Swivel and start to lay down. Then you begin to slip your feet under the covers. The covers are cold and the sheets are slick and smooth. It feels so good.

Oh, gosh. That was super weird. Basically, it is really nice to move your bare feet around in bed because they are finally free. And that just happened to me. So…. I thought I would tell ya’ll about it.

Your welcome. 

{ LovingLuuna }

Spring Cleaning?

I know people do spring cleaning but I am constantly doing "clean-outs". I'll clean my room or re-organize the bathroom and it will stay nice for a week or a month. But then slowly I'll stop putting the things were they belong and everything starts to pile up.

Today, it being the new year and all, I rearranged my room at home and then even cleaned out my bathroom drawer. For some reason it always makes me feel better when I clean my room. I blast the music and dance around as I clean. But the key is that I need to be working up to cleaning. I'll keep telling myself this weekend. I'll have time. And then one morning I'll just wake up and have this giant power in me and I just need to get my life in order.

Once I finish I always feel like I can do anything and life is good. I feel like everyone is nice to one another and we can talk out our problems. But then this dream is crushed and that is when the cleanliness of my space is over with :(

So.... ya. That was my day. Cleaning... and watching Netflix. Oh good ol' Netflix. Lots of GREYS. 

Alrighty. Ta Ta for now :)

{ LovingLuuna }

Sorry Again

Once again I am so exhausted. I don't know what it is. I get enough sleep. I think it's the kids at day care. I haven't been around kids all semester since I went away for college so I forgot how physical it was. Thankfully this coming semester I got a job at the day care on campus so I can get back in shape lol.

After I saw my little sister's preview night for her show choir I went to a friends house and we did a little christmas gift exchange. It was so much fun. We each brought one gift and then took turns picking a gift from the pile. You were aloud to steal. I ended up with the movie "The Perks of Being a Wallflower". I am so happy I got it. Love the movie and now I don't have to buy it. :)

This group of friends are the best. They are all so sweet and kind. I have the best time with them. You know how you have different groups of friends and each group brings out different pieces of you and you have different good times with them? Well that's what I have here. This group is the awesome, pure ones. We have great conversation and they are the people I like to hang out with when I want that nice pure group. We are all religious  and are able to get together and not have the bad influences cloud us.

With my other group, they aren't all religious and our discussions are different. We may talk about boys more, or more "inappropriate" things I guys. The first group is all girls. This group is boys and girls so obviously different things will be brought up.

Amy and Sylvia are my last group. They are the ones where I can totally be me. They are my best friends. I absolutely love them and when I am with them, I can do anything and say anything and it is ok. I don't need to worry about being judged.

Ok, enough ranting on friends lol. Good night loves :)

{ LovingLuuna }

Failing Already :(

Oh, no! Already on day 2 I am failing. My eyes are so tired. I am literally typing this with my eyes closed. They feel so weak. My body is exhasted. I worked today. It was only 4 hours, when I usually do at least 6 at Day Care but it really wore me out. Plus I didn't sleep as well as I wished. I had an awful nightmare that I am not going to rehash. 

Today at day care... it was strange. I am an assistant teacher so I am never alone for a long time with the kids. But today, the main teacher, in my opinion, left once the count was down and I was the teacher in the room with 4 little one year olds. It is just odd to me. Since I work in the afternoon, I am there when the parents pick up their kids. But I don't know which parents go to which kids, so I wait to see how the kids react. It's just so weird.

Kay. Nothing special happened today. I have a major headache right now so I am going to sleep. Goodnight.

{ LovingLuuna }

Starting the New Year with ...

Today, January 1, 2014, I made a "goals" board type dealy that has "resolutions" on it. Basically they are things I have been meaning to work on, but never got too. So it being the new year and all, I have decided to commit. And one of my goals is to do a daily journal along with my daily vlog. Daily vlogs are great for capturing the things I DO everyday but not for capturing emotions and how I am feeling about more personal things.

2014 Goals painted on a canvas to look prettier :)

The first goal is "What's working out?". Essentially I am going to discover what working out is. I plan to get a schedule and stick to it. Along with that is eating healthy. For the past sixths months I have been MUCH better on eating healthier but there is still room for improvement. 

The next goal, as I mentioned, is daily vlogs and journaling. Since August, I think, I have been doing daily vlogs but have missed some days. This year I am going to do a vlog everyday! I am really excited about this. With the journaling, I can do what I am doing now and just explain whatever I want to discuss or I could have a purpose lol. Time will tell what I will actually do.

The final goal  says, "Teacher's give homework: DO IT". This just means I need to study harder and when I do my homework, realize it has a purpose and try and learn from it. I give about 80% for school and I need to give 100%. 

THIS IS MY YEAR.     LET'S MAKE IT GREAT.

{ LovingLuuna }